SMALL?????

Yesterday I had the opportunity to do a little shopping. I bought a cute vest and decided to buy a top to go with it. I tried the Large which was to big.... yeah me. I then went to try the medium, but they didn't have the color I wanted, so I grabbed a different one, and I decided to grab the color I wanted in a small... just for shits and giggles.
Once in the dressing room, I went strait for the small. To my shock and amazement, the small fit perfectly!
Now I know it was only a fluke, but I'm proud to be wearing a top with a tag that says SM.

Success Comes In Small Steps

Just a quick update. I'm down to 182.5 this morning.
I've now lost 10 lbs of my weight gain.
I went from my clothes being to tight and my belly and hips sticking out, to feeling trim again. Ten pounds did that.
I'm now in a small challenge with a friend to lose 10 lbs by Christmas. I've just lost 1 of those 10. I can only imagine how I'll feel with yet another 10lbs off. The last 10 made such a difference, and these next 10 will just be incredible. That would bring me to my lowest weight yet.
Pushing on.
Food is great. Protein is on the mark, I'm taking my vitamins everyday, but water still needs improvement.

Rewards Are Good.

I know I've only been re-focused for a short time, but since I've lost a total of 9 lbs, I felt I deserved a little reward.
Two days ago I bought myself 2 pairs of jeans, and again yesterday, another 2 pairs. I feel thin again. I think I look good in the jeans, and they make me feel good about myself.
I know I'm not at my "pre- weight gain" weight of 176.5, but I'm well on my way. Today I'm at 183.5. Another .5 gone.
My food is very good. I'm eating no more then 6oz per meal. (Mostly 5oz). I'm meeting my protein requirements, and for the most part, staying away from carbs like bread and pasta. I'm eating more fruits and veggies then before. I've taken my vitamins everyday, which is something I was never good at.
Exercise is still a problem, but I've decided that whether or not I go to the gym, I can still exercise at home. I really want to work my butt and legs, and today I seen some great exercises on tv that I'll start doing routinely. Add that to the other exercises I can do at home, and I can have a nice workout. I still want to go to the gym, but on those days I can't.... now I can.

Off to the gym.

I'll soon be leaving to do my laundry at the laundromat, then I'm hitting the gym. I was really looking forward to going Monday, but because of my bruised foot, I couldn't go. Today will be my fist day.

Two nights ago, I asked Dan if he noticed me getting smaller again. (since he noticed me getting bigger). He said no, I still have a big butt. Although I appreciate his honesty, it hurt because I feel like I've slimmed down again.
Yesterday my SIL said "looks like you've lost weight". Mind you she said it looked like it in my shoulders and face, but it's a start.

Weight today is still 184.

Happy Camper

Yesterday was a bit challenging in it's own way.
I ate well, and counted my protein, but I was way over. I'm guessing that's not a good thing. I really need to stick to 70g.
Later on, I was craving something sweet, and we have a box of chocolate bars hidden away. I wanted one in the worst way, but I didn't cave. Instead I had dill pickle rice chips. They were a little high in fat, but they killed my craving and I didn't eat chocolate so in the long run, they were fine.

So, today I'm a happy camper because I'm down to 184. Haven't seen that number in some time. I'm happy because I'm seeing the results of my effort, but I have to get it through my head that it's not the scale that counts. This is a new lifestyle and whether or not I see the scale move is irrelevant. This is just how it has to be everyday, no matter what.

I took all my vitamins again yesterday. All except my iron. Since I can't take it with the rest, I forget it. Will do better today.

I was disappointed yesterday because I attempted to go to the gym, and quickly found out there was no way I could work out. The day before I dropped a bottle on the top of my foot. I had no idea it was bruised until I but my running shoes on. I tried walking around to see if I could manage it, but it was a no go. I'm taking today off to. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be able to go. I'm looking forward to getting fit.

Things Are Going Well.

I am starting to feel like my old self again. I'm really feeling good about my food and am excited to hit the gym tomorrow.
My weight was up this morning at 186.5, but I'm sure drinking 4 cups of tea till 1am and being up early this morning might have something to do with it. Regardless of the weight loss, today I feel thin. For the first time in months I can look myself in the mirror and like what I see. The inches must be coming off.
I know I'm not at the weight I want to be at, or at the weight I was at, but it really isn't about weight. I really need to eat this way ANYWAY. That's what I signed on for.
I'm also proud of myself for taking my vitamins for 3 days in a row. I know that doesn't sound like much, but it really is huge. I've also weighed all my food, and have been concentrating on protein.... fish in particular.
Tomorrow I'm starting the gym aspect of my new life. Everything just needs to be routine. Just another part of my usual day. I really am looking forward to it.
Tomorrow night I'm also sitting in on a WLS chat. I think staying connected will help.

It's a Saturday, and I'm Feeling Pretty Good.

It may be raining outside today, but I'm looking forward to cleaning my house and making it a great productive day.
My weight is 185.5, and I've started off on the right foot. I took my vitamins already, something I always forget. I'm going to start making that part of my routine.
I bought myself some liquid Omega 3, and a green tea daily cleans. They both taste terrible, but it's only 1 and 2 tbs respectively a day.
Plans for today's food...
I think I'm going to start breakfast with 1 egg, 2oz yogurt, and 1 oz raspberries.
Lunch, 3oz shrimp with the cocktail sauce and 3" piece of cucumber... perhaps a fruit as well.
Dinner, 4oz fish. I will do the egg wash and bread crumbs. 2oz broccoli.
Snacks- protein shake, cottage cheese fluff, celery sticks with hummus.
Will probably have a bed time snack too. I'm thinking 2oz escargot with 1oz lite soy cheese.

I just discovered this new cheese. It tastes like cheddar, but it's soy. Has only 1g of fat/ oz and it's low in cals. Perfect for my needs.

Anyway, I'm looking forward to getting started on my house, and breakfast awaits.

5 Day Pouch Test- Day 5

Today is the last day of my pouch test. I think it's been a great success. My pouch feels nice and tight and even better, I'm weighing my food again. No more over eating. No more picking.
I'm drinking a lot more water and feeling really good about my plan.
Not only did the test kick start my pouch, but it kick started my hope, desire and determination to get to my goal.
Yes, it can be done, and I will do it.

Last week I was going through clothes I had stored. Got rid of a lots of things to big, and found some of my daughter's size 10 jeans. They don't look impossible. I'm a 14 now, and with my new focus, perhaps I'll get there. I'd rather hang on to a size 10 then a 16 or 18. I refuse to hold on to bigger clothes.

Monday I went to the gym and did anti-gravity yoga. It was ok. I don't think it was for me though. I must admit, my abs have been sore ever since. Didn't hit the gym the rest of the week, but I have a plan in place to start again Monday. I want this to be a regular routine. I just need to PUSH PUSH PUSH.

Today's weight was 185.5. I still have more to go to get back to the 176.5 I saw for one day on that scale, but I will get there. I'm hoping to be there for my 2 year anniversary Nov 10. That gives me almost 2 months to lose 9 pounds. Very do-able.

5 Day Pouch Test- Day 3

So, my eating got way out of control. All the old habits were back with a vengeance. Somehow I needed to stop it in it's tracks. I had already gained about 17 lbs. Way to much. My clothes were not fitting anymore, and I knew if I stayed on that path, I'd regain it all in no time.
So I decided to start the 5 day pouch test to get my pouch back in shape. The first 2 days were hell since all I could eat was liquids.
Today, I'm able to eat canned tuna and eggs. Definitely feel the pouch has shrunk. Doesn't take as much to fill me up as it use to.
My weight today is 188.5. It's still up there, but it's coming down.
I will make it.
I've also decided to become more active with my online support group. I feel this is going to be the key to keeping me honest and motivated.

Motivated is the right word. When I decided to have this surgery, I was very motivated. I was my own advocate and I was determined. Post op, the same thing. Somewhere down the road I got complacent and took things for granted. That is not a possibility with this surgery. It is only a tool and if you stop using it, it doesn't keep working on it's own. Although I knew that, I didn't really accept that. Now I do.

I'm going to work hard each and every day for the rest of my life, but I don't have to think about that today. Today I just have to work hard right now, and tomorrow is another day.

I have set a new mini goal.
By Nov 10, 2010, I want to be back down to 176.5. That's where I stopped my weight loss. That gives me almost 2 months. Very do-able.
By Jan 15, I'd like to be very near my new goal of 160. Also very do-able I think.